If life were simple I could me home, I could play all day with Asher and enjoy his smile. If life were simple by boys would be happy, Espen would not be sitting next to me at 1:50am with mysterious leg cramps that always show up this late. If life were simple, I would not have had to work at 9pm because I did not want to miss time with my little one. If life was simple....
Today was the first day I started work since Asher was born. I new it was coming, I had planned this job. I just would rather not have to work. It seems to be the only thing that is easy, it comes easy, and I do enjoy it, just not at this time in my life.
Payton had a melt down with his report card. It is like he does not know his effort equals poor grades. I work so hard to make improvements in his life and I also feel I earned his report card.
Espen is struggling, yesterday he wanted to change his name first to Asher, than to Tom. Of course his imaginary friend is back, Joe. I enjoy hearing how Joe has all the bells and whistles at his house. Mostly concerned about his anxiety, tummy aches, and leg pains. I hope this will pass soon.
Working tonight got me thinking about how I just do not have many pictures of my kids. It is about paying attention more to those moments that are so easily missed. I know I have a few months before I get busy so I vow to start paying more attention and trying to have more moments with my kids.
On Sunday with the beautiful weather, we went on a walk to find hearts in nature. I wanted my boys to pay attention and have some fun with a scavenger hunt. If only it were that simple. They fought over who had the better scooter the whole way, but I had a few moments. I will post photos tomorrow, I am going to bed.
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